Grey Hairs and Black Dogs

by Ollie Wale

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1.
One more week until the dissertation deadlines And I just can't get my arse out of bed Spend my days imagining my name in headlines Someone, get this nonsense out of my head Could you please prescribe some medication To help me resolve this situation? They say that I'm losing concentration Got ideas above my station instead I think I'm lacking dedication, baby I'm in a very tricky mess indeed Procrastination medication, baby I tell you, doctor, that is all I need Now the day of reckoning is getting nearer And I still can't get my arse out of bed Mum says something, she looks mad, but I can't hear her 'Cos I've got this music stuck in my head Now I do enjoy university But unless you are able to cure me I could waste this great opportunity Because my hopes of a degree hang by a thread I think I'm lacking dedication, baby I'm in a very tricky mess indeed Procrastination medication, baby I tell you, doctor, that is all I need What's the point of an English degree When a singer-songwriter is all I wanna be? I said, what's the point of an English degree When I really can't see any other future for me? I said, what's the point of an English degree When a singer-songwriter is all I wanna be? I said, what's the point of an English degree When I really can't see any other future for me? I think I'm lacking dedication, baby I'm in a mess indeed Procrastination medication, baby Yeah, that is what I need I think I'm lacking dedication, baby I'm in a mess indeed Procrastination medication, baby So many books to read Now the day of reckoning is getting nearer And I still can't get my arse out of bed Mum says something, she looks mad, but I can't hear her 'Cos I've got this music stuck in my head I think I'm lacking dedication, baby I'm in a very tricky mess indeed Procrastination medication, baby I tell you, doctor, that is all I need
2.
Three people sit by the bar As I pack up my guitar The biggest audience I’ve had this year so far But looking closer, I see An angel staring at me Instant attraction Some things are meant to be So I walk over to her, tell her my name, thank her for coming, then head for the door She says, ‘’Hold up, give me your number. I’ll do the same.’’ I say, ‘’What are you wanting it for?’’ If you wanna be with someone like me You’ll surely change your mind I don’t believe it's true that someone like you Could be that way inclined Maybe you're out of your mind Or certifiably blind But either way, you should leave this notion behind I don’t look much like Brad Pitt And sadly I must admit My personality won't make up for it ‘Cos I have problems that you wouldn’t believe These anxieties, they mess with my head. You’re attractive, it’s true, I wear my heart on my sleeve But you should look for a real man instead If you wanna be with someone like me You’ll surely change your mind I don’t believe it's true that someone like you Could be that way inclined I’m feeling sorry for myself It’s time to break out the tissues I’ve got no energy to get out of bed and solve my issues Music’s the only thing I wanna do But it’s taking me ages to get off my butt and write something new I spend my days mainly trying to contain rage ‘Cos I’m still in the crowd, watching others on the main stage And in a year or seven, I’ll pick up the pen And write another bitter song about it Here I go again. If you wanna be with someone like me You’ll surely change your mind I don’t believe it's true that someone like you Could be that way inclined And one last thing I haven’t mentioned before I treat life as a joke, I’m still very immature And if you want me to cook dinner for you, we’ve got a deal As long as you’re satisfied with a microwaveable meal I’m barely 5’6’’, I’m remarkably unfit And the fact that you’re attracted to me puts me off a bit But we can meet up next weekend, on Saturday if that suits ya No? I understand. All the best for the future
3.
There's nothing like nostalgia to get me started On a trip back down memory lane Four years we spent together before we parted Popping bottles of cheap champagne But tell me, how did we end up with a degree? We spent time recklessly Little work, lots of play But today we will say The world is ours despite those endless hours of procrastination Raise a glass, raise a glass to graduation day Our future's bright, so we must make tonight a celebration Raise a glass, raise a glass to graduation day And soon we'll all be pulled in a new direction Separate paths, but it's not goodbye We walked this road together, built a connection Which will last 'til the day we die And we know that we will seize all opportunities The possibilities never end So make way, 'cos today is our day The world is ours despite those endless hours of procrastination Raise a glass, raise a glass to graduation day Our future's bright, so we must make tonight a celebration Raise a glass, raise a glass to graduation day There's nothing like nostalgia to get me started 'Cos I had hopes and dreams, now they've long departed How did things get so bad? Still live with mum and dad I miss the fun we had Take me back, take me back to graduation day When the world was ours despite those endless hours of procrastination Raise a glass, raise a glass to graduation day Our future's bright, or so it seemed that night Take me back, take me back to graduation day
4.
Go to sleep Lay in bed Count some sheep Clear your head Go to sleep Lay in bed Count some sheep Clear your head But one last thing before the night is through Remind yourself of all the things you’ve got to do Let me start things off with a minor warning You’ve got to go to the hairdresser’s in the morning So get ready for some small talk He’ll be noticing the nervousness in your walk As soon as you open the door Trying to second-guess what kind of conversation’s in store He’ll say ‘’The weather’s not great today’’, and you’ll reply ‘’Sure’’ And then you’ll later regret that you didn’t say a bit more But you’re an introverted loser and he knew this before No doubt he’ll mock you with his friends after No doubt you’ll be the root cause and the subject of incessant laughter ’Cos in this one-horse town, everybody knows everybody and nobody’s your buddy, they just want to see you fail When they’re all queuing to ask how you’re doing, they don’t really care about the life of Ollie Wale But anyway, it’s time to change the subject, you’ve got to go to the doctor’s in the afternoon But what’s the point? You’ve already checked your symptoms so you know that you’ll be dead extremely soon You asked Google some questions, it gave you its answer Now you think that you’ve got terminal cancer You used to have a sense of humour But it’s hard to be amusing after you’ve diagnosed yourself with a brain tumour ‘’The world is ours’’, you and your friends all said it But three years later, need to give your life a major edit ‘Cos university’s long-gone, you live with your parents, you’re unemployed and you’re claiming for universal credit Try to ignore the negative voice inside your head, Try to muster the energy to get out of bed Try to banish the paranoia, you start to wonder If your parents are poisoning you to keep you under the weather To keep the family together They know you’ve got ambitions and you’d leave if you felt any better Sold 1000 copies of a song, almost reached the top 100, read some criticism Was it wrong to let that criticism stop you making music for so long? A year has passed and still you’re feeling like you don’t belong Your skin’s not thick enough to make it in the music business So what’s the point in trying? It’s too late now 'Cos you witness those grey hairs when you look at your reflection Plus, the pills don’t work and therapy won’t help you change direction You never thought you’d hear your therapist say, ‘’Did you crash your car on purpose when you drove to work that day?’’ And you didn’t, and you know that Still, you can’t help but feel that your mind was somewhere else There was a black dog at the wheel So you sit beside the river and you let your mind go numb And you start to contemplate just what your life has become And wonder what it would be like if you weren’t around If you disappeared one day and were never to be found If you were no longer there, would anybody care? Would you care about your own life if your mum and dad weren’t there? They’re the only ones who’d be upset But there’s a part of you which thinks it’s not the right time to give up on yourself yet There's a part of you which thinks it's not the right time to give up on yourself yet Go to sleep Lay in bed Count some sheep Clear your head Forget your worries Dispose of them I’ll let you sleep now It’s 9am
5.
City Lights 04:21
My friend, it's time to start again Dead end, I must escape and then I'll send a letter home to you Another year has come and gone Stalled by the fear of moving on This time I'd better see it through When I'm struggling hopelessly There is no place I'd rather be I wanna go to the city lights Elevated to greater heights No more daydreams for little me When my dream's a reality No, I won't let this one-horse town defeat me I'm needing something to change my life completely I wanna go to the city lights My friend, I act like nothing's wrong Pretend they listen to my song The end of empty pubs is drawing near I'll swap it for a life of fame Billboards will advertise my name And crowds will flood the streets when I appear When I'm feeling lost at sea There is no place I'd rather be I wanna go to the city lights Elevated to greater heights No more daydreams for little me When my dream's a reality No, I won't let this one-horse town defeat me I'm needing something to change my life completely When I'm feeling lost at sea There is no place I'd rather be I wanna go to the city lights Elevated to greater heights No more daydreams for little me When my dream's a reality No, no, I'm never gonna let this one-horse town defeat me I'm needing something to change my life completely I'm gonna leave this one-horse town behind me And now there's only one place you'll ever find me I'll meet you under the city lights
6.
Back in the days when I was a schoolkid I played the fool but I never was a cool kid Over-emotional and standing barely five foot high But I was popular enough, my humour got me by I miss that little guy Guess he got lost along the way, no time to say goodbye So now it’s time that I make a major change Scotland, you’ll be missed Move to London, make my fortune like I’m Oliver Twist And maybe find some peace of mind Exorcise those demons, make 'em do sit-ups and leave ‘em far behind Instead I feel resigned, ‘cos now I’ve made that switch and I can’t press rewind City lights have made me blind Thought I’d build an empire But the only difference here is that the rent’s higher And time is ticking on, so honestly, there’s no point in trying When someone compliments my music, I can tell that they’re lying I ain’t buying it And I know I can’t play guitar It’s a basic skill I lack And I know that I won’t get far With the devil on my back So I guess it’s too late I’ll just sit right here, accept my fate So I guess it’s too late Good things rarely come to those who wait Guess it’s a case of same shit, different place On graduation day, it’s safe to say that I never imagined my bright future ending up this way Three years later, was living in Perth with mum and dad And now in London with my sister which is just as bad But really, could you possibly blame me for feeling bitter? Thought she wanted her brother and not a dog-sitter Picking up his faeces while she’s out on the town As if I need another black dog dragging me down How selfish can she be? Each day is challenging enough with this anxiety How can I find a job if I don’t have the time to look Or complete a song without the time to write the hook? I don’t know, but far too easily my brain accepts defeat I go from thinking I’m the best in the universe to the worst on my street And time is ticking on, no point in trying When someone compliments my music, I can tell they’re lying I ain’t buying it And I know I can’t play guitar It’s a basic skill I lack And I know that I won’t get far With the devil on my back So I guess it’s too late I’ll just sit right here, accept my fate So I guess it’s too late Good things rarely come to those who wait Guess it’s a case of same shit, different place
7.
When you look at your reflection You believe you’ve lost direction Wasted time And your doubts, they just grow stronger ‘Cos you know that you're no longer in your prime On autopilot, feel your brain go numb No point in changing what your life's become ‘’There’s always tomorrow’’, you say But then the morning comes and nothing is clearer So you just stay in bed and wait for another day Maybe tomorrow all your dreams will be nearer ‘’There’s always tomorrow, always tomorrow’’, you say Oh, you say But you’ve lost all sense of purpose And you feel your life is worthless You don’t care ‘Cos you feel like you're the odd one out And everyone would cope without you there So much self-pity Wallow and you'll drown You let your bad days drag your good days down ‘’There’s always tomorrow’’, you say But then the morning comes and nothing is clearer So you just stay in bed and wait for another day Maybe tomorrow all your dreams will be nearer ‘’There’s always tomorrow, always tomorrow’’, you say Oh, you say But youth is wasted on the young You’re not the first and you won't be the last So take each moment as it comes Have no regrets The past is in the past So keep on moving, even if it's slow The darkness comes before the dawn, you know There’s always tomorrow, my friend And if the morning comes and nothing is clearer Remember there are brighter days just around the bend Maybe tomorrow all your dreams will be nearer There’s always tomorrow Always tomorrow, my friend Although your day's been filled with darkness and sorrow There’s always tomorrow, always tomorrow Always tomorrow, my friend Oh, my friend
8.
I arrived in the big smoke A brand new man Hoping that my life would change London rent will make me flat broke Without a plan Is it too soon to rearrange? Searching job websites with a fine-tooth comb Two weeks away from heading straight back home Feeling low ‘cos I know I can’t afford to be slow Someone help me Got to be stronger than I’ve ever been before Can’t wait much longer to find what I’m searching for These are tough times, ‘cos I can write rhymes and music’s all I adore But it’s make or break now, I can’t be jobless anymore. I can’t be jobless anymore Just when I stop believing Lo and behold A local friend comes to my aid Now there’s no need for leaving Because I’m told That I might soon be getting paid A part-time retail job’s just what I need After an interview, it is agreed Finally I can see there’s a future for me in this city I’m feeling stronger than I’ve ever felt before Won’t be much longer ’til I’m walking through that door My start date is near, I’ll make new friends here And brighter days lie in store ‘Cos I’m paid in Chelsea and I’m not jobless anymore No, I’m not jobless anymore I no longer feel self-pity, I appreciate the city It’s pretty, how did I never notice this before? ‘Cos when you’re stuck in a rut, it becomes quite easy to shut yourself off from a world you’d otherwise explore I’ll never go home until I get what I’m owed So change my postcode, I’m the king of the King’s Road Until the months go by and things tend to get stale Like every single job I’ve ever had in retail A singer-songwriter’s lifestyle isn’t what it seems I had to work in a clothes shop to fund my dreams Never had a passion for fashion So it’s time to be rash and take a gamble on myself Hoping it’ll cash in Find a job a little closer to the place I’m living Find a schedule which is a little more forgiving Focus on my music, make an album or two After all, that’s what I came here to do I’m feeling stronger than I’ve ever felt before Won’t be much longer ’til I’m walking out the door This job’s not for me Things won’t be easy but I know one thing for sure. I’m paid in Chelsea but I don’t want it anymore No, I don’t want it anymore
9.
Back in the days when I was a school kid I played the fool but I never was a cool kid Over-emotional and standing barely five foot high But I was popular enough, my humour got me by I miss that little guy Although I wonder why ‘Cos he had issues like I do They mounted high throughout the years until my only option was to fly from my hometown In search of bigger fish to fry Needed some medication after graduation ‘Cos my problems were bigger than just procrastination I’d lost direction in life I couldn’t build up the nerve to say ‘hello’ to a potential future wife I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t get out of bed I couldn’t banish the critical voices running amok inside my head Sometimes I thought that I’d be better off dead That’s when I knew that I must leave the past behind, look to the future instead It was naive to believe that I’d be fixed in one day That a change of location would make it all go away What can I say? Forgive me, father, here’s my confession I thought that moving to London would cure me of my depression It’s not as simple as that It doesn’t just disappear But you can work on ways to cope with it Could take a week, a month, a year But now I’m in a better place than ever before Those grey hairs and black dogs don’t faze me anymore Sometimes, on my bad days, when I don’t know what to do I get caught up in my problems and forget that others struggle too Sister, I know that it’s not an easy thing to put you through Just know that I’m grateful you’re still allowing me to live with you And it’s true, I’m grateful for that little dog too And if you need any help, I’m always here for you Only just started to realise that it is not a crime to live in the moment Relaxing isn’t a waste of time Won’t beat myself up over things that I lack I’ll take pride from what I’ve got My friends and family always have my back I still have days when I feel worthless but they’re few and far between Got grey hairs on my head but I don’t care if they’re seen I’ll take some notes from the bad years, use that stuff as revision Now I can see a big one coming up, got 2020 vision Time is ticking on, so really, it’s the right time for trying When someone compliments my music now, I feel like I’m flying And I ain’t lying And I know I can’t play guitar It’s a basic skill I lack But I know that I won’t get far If I let it hold me back ‘Cos it’s never too late I’ll get up on my feet, control my fate No, it’s never too late Good things rarely come to those who wait So I’m picking up the pace I’m in a different place
10.
Homebird 03:23
Mother There’s no other like you And I’m sorry for all of the times that I brought you to tears Mother I’m so thankful to you ‘Cos you gave me a bed and you kept me well-fed through those years I’ll always come back to you Homebird Spending my life on the wing Knowing it never changes a thing My whole life through I will always come back to you Father I can promise you this No-one else in the world shares a bond like we do It’s unique Father Can’t deny that I miss Sharing songs old and new, watching football with you every week I’ll always come back to you Homebird Spending my life on the wing Knowing it never changes a thing My whole life through I will always come back to you Homeward Yearning for memories new Friends and family, white saltire on blue My whole life through I will always come back to you You're not just parents, best friends too Supported me in all I do And though I’ve flown to pastures new I’ll always come back to you Homebird Spending my life on the wing Knowing it never changes a thing My whole life through I will always come back to you Homeward Yearning for memories new Friends and family, the fair city too My whole life through I will always come back to you

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Detailing his struggles with mental health over the past six years, Ollie Wale's ten-track debut album is a conceptual project which combines elements of mainstream pop, rock, folk and rap.

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released June 5, 2020

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Ollie Wale London, UK

Ollie Wale is a Scottish singer-songwriter based in London.

Ollie’s debut album 'Grey Hairs and Black Dogs' combined elements of mainstream pop, rock, folk and rap.

He is currently working on his second album, with its next single How Fucking Dare You (But I'm Over It) due for release on March 29th.
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